People have asked me to share what are good things to say to those who are grieving, and what are things better left unsaid.
I've tried.
I've tried four times.
I have not posted any of it.
Why?
The hurt has still been too raw and ready, and it has taken me to a very angry place. I don't get angry over most of the things that were said to me. What stokes my fire the most is the memory of words that have hurt our children and made this already agonizing road even more painful. Mama bear. She has a hard time letting go of hurt to her cubs.
What have I learned?
I will write about those things someday. First, though, it is essential that I walk the road of forgiveness over all of those clumsy, thoughtless, well-intended, damaging, hurtful words. I wrote about this in my most recent post. I have not posted anything since because I am living the journey right now.
I am doing the hard work, prayerfully, sometimes reluctantly, but committed to pressing on.
I will not be able to write in a healthy, hopeful, helpful way about the words that hurt until I have excavated the buried pain and resentment in my own heart and let it go.
For now, I'll continue to share the journey toward forgiveness.
And someday, when I can do it without fire shooting from my fingertips, I will write about the words that were spoken to us in our hardest days.
Sharing my heart as I walk the road of grief. "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18
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