I have learned many things about forgiveness, and one of the
most important is what forgiveness is
not.
Forgiveness is a personal matter, concerned with how each of
us chooses to handle the emotions we have surrounding an incident of hurt. It
means freeing ourselves from the prison of bitterness. In the process,
the other person might be freed from a solitary confinement we have created,
but it is not about them. It concerns only our own hearts.
It is possible to forgive someone who will never understand
what they’ve done, let alone apologize. It is possible to forgive someone who
has died. If the wounding took place in childhood and the wounded person does
not learn about forgiveness until they’re grown, sometimes the opportunity for
restoration is forever gone. The opportunity to forgive, though, is never lost.
*Forgiveness does not need to involve the other person.
Some people have the damaging idea that to forgive means to
give the offender complete, unbridled access into their life. This could not be
more wrong!
One of the best contradictions of this I’ve heard:
“If someone embezzles from you, you may choose to forgive them.
You do not let them handle your money!”
(I wish I knew where I’d heard that, so I could give due
credit!)
*Forgiveness, especially for large, deep wounds, must
include the setting of wise and careful boundaries for the future!
Creating a new, more safe and healthy future does not mean
that you have not forgiven. To protect yourself from further harm is not “holding
grudges.” It simply means that you have learned from a hard thing and are doing
what is best for your heart’s future.
To forgive and completely forget is mostly God’s business.
For we humans, a better wisdom is often to take important
lessons from hurt, in order to create a better future. As the old saying goes, “He who
forgets the past is doomed to repeat it.”
If we have moved through the process of forgiving, the
memory of the hurt may fade and lose its power over time. That’s good and can
be a huge relief, but forgetting is not required for true forgiveness to take place.
*Forgiveness does not require telling the offender they’ve
been forgiven.
The decision to share that information much be
considered
very carefully, taking into consideration the many aspects of the
relationship
and whether that conversation would lead to a better place. In some
cases, it
can lead to good, healing conversations and a better, brighter future. I
have also
known people who expressed forgiveness and had the conversations explode
in
their faces. Be very thoughtful about telling someone you’ve forgiven
them when there has been no prior conversation about the hurt between
you.
*Forgiving does not mean that what was done to us was somehow fine.
That
is not what it means at all. It only means that we will no longer allow
that hurt to hold power over us. We willingly set it aside, to free
ourselves from its pain.
*Forgiveness does not mean glossing over the offense as if it never happened.
It is vital to our healing that we acknowledge the very real hurt that was done, and the wrongness of it. We need to acknowledge that our wounding is both real and justified.
*Forgiveness is not a moment in time.
The decision to forgive is a moment. The process of living out that decision is a journey.
*Forgiveness does not necessarily mean staying in that
relationship.
There are offenses and circumstances so deep and wrong that
a complete severing of the relationship is necessary. There comes a
time when we must, for our own physical, emotional, mental or spiritual safety,
cut an offender out of our lives completely. That decision is often very
painful and hard, and may continue to be hard for many years. Ultimately, it is
our job to protect ourselves from all forms of assault…and we have every right to do
so.
People may be deeply hurt, offended, mystified or very angry
when that door of relationship is closed. That’s unfortunate and can be very hard to face, but it does not mean it is
wrong to set that boundary. Whether or not explain what you are doing
and why must be wisely considered.
I have had to do this once, and in that case it was the
right thing to tell the other person what was happening and why. I wrote a
letter, laying out clearly what was done, and that this deep breach of trust in
the friendship left no room for a future. It was absolutely the right decision
for my own well-being. It was also hard and painful, and remained painful for a
long time. It still makes me sad, nearly twenty years later, but it was still
the deeply right decision.
In other situations, it may be the best, wisest and safest
thing to just close that door quietly and privately, and move on without a
word. Neither way is right or wrong. Each situation must be handled in its own
unique, best way.
One of the best analogies I've ever heard:
"Refusing to forgive is like drinking poison and waiting for the other guy to die."
In the end, holding onto hurt, resentment or bitterness does the most and deepest harm to our own hearts and minds. Refusing to forgive is like insisting on staying in a prison cell when the door is wide open and we are free to go.
Even where the hurt is vast and profound, choosing the path to forgiveness is still the best possible healing journey for the sake of our own brighter futures.
